The other day in church I had one of those moments. One of those moments where you feel the Holy Spirit filling you. Where you feel so full you lose your breath. Where it begins to feel like your heart is coming up through your throat. That moment where you feel God’s presence consuming you. God was filling me up. During that short moment of worship in a church full of people God met me. Life has been pretty crazy lately. Ever since baby… Read more »

a Rafflecopter giveaway   *Things will be quiet around here today as I am logging off of all *technology* My Church is challenging us to a technology blackout…(GASP) I know! No TV or anything, baby girl will be sad about not getting to watch Barney…(Mama won’t) Have a good weekend friends!!!

My Sweet baby girl. I knew I was supposed to be a mama to a girl, my heart longed for it. I prayed and prayed for her for years before God blessed me with her. She completes our family perfectly and helps her brothers learn how to be tender and kind. They love her fiercely. She is training them well, their future wives will be thankful. She can melt your heart and has her Daddy wrapped around her finger. There is something… Read more »

My second born lost two teeth last week. Well, more like mama pulled them out! This sweet boy has been desperately wanting to lose a tooth ever since big bro lost his. So when one started to get even a little wiggly it was his mission to make it come out. Finally the tooth was loose enough that he came up to me and ever so bravely asked me to pull it out. Well, I pulled out that tooth and he… Read more »

My heart was open. I was finally allowing myself to work through the emotions. I finally began to speak of the pain. But it’s just not fair. Why is my baby gone? I allowed myself to share my feelings with others. My thoughts of pain, sadness, anger, and confusion. I finally let the words come out. It wasn’t just you. You aren’t the only one who lost the baby. Those words opened up a whole new idea to me. I had been so… Read more »

The baby is gone. I repeated those words over and over. I was numb. I didn’t feel anything. No sadness, no anger, nothing. I was empty, broken hearted, and numb. Questions kept flooding my mind. Was it something I did? Why me? Where is my baby now? Where is my baby now? That question was the hardest for me. That question rocked my faith. I’m a Christian I don’t have these types of questions. I KNOW where my baby is. But… Read more »

A few weeks ago we spent a long weekend up north on our families ranch property. This place is amazing, tons of trees and plenty of land for the kids to run on. They got to do what they do best, run and scream and play and get dirty. Eventually we would like to build a second home and spend all of our summers and vacations up there. However, until time and money permit, my sister-in-law and her husband graciously… Read more »

I’m sorry. There is nothing there. I laid on the table trying not to cry. My husband held my hand and kissed my forehead as the tears rolled down my cheeks. Sometimes its not meant to be, your body knows when there is something wrong, its nothing that you did. I laid there, nodding, completely vulnerable with my heart wide open feeling like it had been ripped from my chest. I couldn’t catch my breath, I couldn’t speak, but I… Read more »

2 John 4-5 It has given me great joy to find some of your children walking in the truth, just as the Father has commanded us. And now, dear lady, I am not writing you a new command but one we have had from the beginning. I ask that we love one another.   This verse screamed out at me this morning. I don’t know if it was because it was saying “dear lady” and I took that as though He… Read more »