I wrote a brief caption about this last night on my Instagram but I can’t help but speak on it a little more here.
Comparison is something I have struggled with for a very long time. It’s so easy to get caught up in what everyone else is doing and forget about what you have, isn’t it?
I spent the last week trying to figure out why my eye was twitching. It wouldn’t stop, in fact it bothered me so much I found myself praying for it to stop, but I didn’t know why it was doing it. I wasn’t stressed, I hadn’t had a particularly hard week, lots of fun and exciting things were happening.
I felt happy.
But it just wouldn’t stop.
Finally on Friday night right before our essential oils 101 class I found myself smelling the aroma of the oil blend release. I was particularly drawn to it and just kept inhaling it. I looked over at my friend and mentioned how my head almost felt lighter not like I was going to pass out or anything but almost as if I was floating, I kept saying how I had never felt something like that.
Then out of nowhere in the middle of a normal conversation the tears fell. I tried to stop them, and they weren’t pouring out by any means, but they fell. And I felt even lighter. Like a release, like the oil blend had done exactly what it was intended to do.
I looked at my sweet friend in amazement saying how I had no idea what I was being released from. It was the most bizarre situation I had ever been in. I felt better from something that I didn’t even know was bothering me.
The night went on, the next day went on, I praised the oil and the Lord for doing a work in me, but I didn’t know what the work was.
Then Saturday evening came.
We sat through church and the entire night we were listening to the pastor speak about comparison.
The thief of joy.
A never ending battle.
A no win game.
Rotting to the soul.
Near impossible to overcome without the Lord.
And it hit me like a ton of bricks.
Everything I had touched lately I was comparing to others.
My children, my marriage, my home, myself, my blog, my social media outlets, the way I spent my days, and on and on and on.
Goodness gracious I was eating myself alive with comparison.
But goodness gracious my Lord is mighty to save.
Do not fear, do not be anxious, I will never leave you, or forsake you.
He revealed my need to me, in a gentle and slow way. In the way He knew I would respond and take recognition to.
The twitching, the release, the church service, my heart.
It was all how He planned, all how He wanted, and all that I needed.
Comparison is ugly.
It will rot your bones, make your heart a dark place even before you know its there, and it is almost impossible to overcome alone.
God is good.
God loves you and wants you to overcome it.
Look at all you have friends, look at it, take inventory and be thankful for all He has given you. Then look at your friend or your neighbor or the girl on your social media channel and thank the Lord for the work He has done in them, for all he has given them, for all He will give them.
And release it.
God is good, all of the time.